A Few Personal Words…
There are days when I feel like a fraud. I’m a health wellness expert, lifestyle guru, international model and someone that a lot of people look up to. I give advice on how to be healthy, happy and get your best body.
Yet there are so many times that I end up going against mine own advice. I occasionally binge, I get really down and I know that stress is the thing that causes me to get sick. It’s a really interesting one because I never asked to become this wellness guru, it just happened from me sharing my own experiences. Passing on the knowledge that I’ve learned while being passionate about changing my own body, mind and life. I have transformed myself while trying to help others, which is one of the most amazing things I’ve done.
So why is it that I can get so down on myself? It seems like a catch 22 that when I’m giving this advice I don’t take it on my own. I know that I need to sleep more, meditate, have a regular yoga practice and consistent routine with working out and eating. I also know that the more I do it, the easier it becomes.
I do believe that we are all human, we all make mistakes, learn from them and try again. Food/health/wellness is one of those things that takes time and much practice to master. I know that I had many years of unhealthy habits from the modeling world, which will take years to change. We don’t make these big grandeous changes overnight, well, actually many of us do but they don’t stick!
These type of posts I write on instagram because that was where I started my journey, so it feels a bit strange to write it here. My website has always been a place where I provide recipes, information and support to others, never sharing too much about my personal life. Whereas my IG account was (and is) everything. I started it two years ago as a place to post my meals, motivational pictures and thoughts all while keeping it anonymous until I hit 50,000 followers (at which point I thought maybe they should know who they were following!). It’s a scary thing to share our innermost thoughts and feelings and to admit that we are ‘normal’ just like everyone else.
I appreciate it when celebrities come out and share their struggles and find it very fake when others sit there and say how perfect their lives are. We all want to be able to relate and know that even in times of bad, everything will be okay.
I think for myself, so much travel has led me to lose routine, which we all crave. It’s also led me to not sleep as well and sleep is one of the most important things we can do for our bodies! It allows our muscles, mind and digestive system to regenerate and get stronger. So I guess with that, I am just sharing a bit of my thoughts to the world, a bit longer version than my normal paragraph or two on instagram. I know I will sleep, I know I will get routine back and of course feel better. It’s always a journey, for myself and all of you!