And the last week begins…
We have now officially begun our final week and I have such mixed feelings. On one end I’m so excited to be done so that I can go back to “life” but also to practice my yoga on my own and see if I can relate everything I’ve learned so far into real life. On the other hand, I’m not ready to go, because it’s always easier to be healthier, do lots of yoga, meditation and think clear thoughts when you are secluded in a little bubble. I’m absolutely loving being here and yet it’s so tough and I’m ready for normal life. I know that I cannot continue this journey forever and honestly, I am really, really excited to get back to LA and start sharing everything I’ve experienced and what I’m learning with the rest of the world. There are so many things I’m loving here: getting to know the other yogis, their stories (it makes you so compassionate towards others), learning yoga, being on an island with beautiful beaches, and really all things of this lifestyle. But I am missing my cat serious amounts, my gym and doing workouts other than yoga, normal showers, feeling clean. One thing I am absolutely not missing though is my life before I left. I was stressed and I don’t have a desire to go back to that. I think for many of us, we get so caught up in our day to day lives that when our body and mind starts telling us that we need to slow down, or take care of ourselves, we don’t listen because our life is too important.I know for myself, this was the case. I always had so much to do, blog posts, instagram posts, social media, youtube videos, dealing with people from my company…. not to mention making good food to write recipes on, my own workouts and seeing friends. What I have come to realize from my time here is that we are all busy. We all have the same 24 hours in a day and it’s what we prioritize that shows our true character. I basically burnt myself out before coming to Bali big time. I stopped listening to myself and really taking time for me. I was constantly stressed and never really happy. What I’ve decided I don’t want to- and will not- go back to is not giving myself time each day. I now understand the imporatnace of doing something each and everyday for yourself and how much it can change your mood. I’ve also realized that beating myself up for everything doesn’t help me get happy. So when I say that I don’t want to go back to my life, it’s the negative self-talk, constantly busy, never have time for myself Nikki that I will not go back to. I feel really, really happy here and I am super excited to be able to share the energy I know that I have.
The only thing that really is making me realize I need to head back to LA is my little Seacat! Other than that, I have a huge desire to stay in Bali for a while.
Anyways, we had our second day off yesterday and it was really such a wonderful day. I finally got my butt in gear and headed for a run around the island. At 8.30am it was already dreadfully hot and I could barely run the whole thing. You would think from all the yoga I would be able to run pretty easily, nope. Not even. I think it’s a mix of the heat and actually being pretty sore that my normal 5k which takes under 30 minutes outdoors ended up being like 45 minutes. #fail. Sort of. A bunch of us then went snorkeling and it was the coolest thing ever, well not the fact that I got lost from everyone and the boat and started thinking about those movies where you are lost at sea… but more so because I finally found someone from our group and she managed to find us a turtle! Me being me, I had to take a selfie with it, which was pretty epic. These turtles are really majestic and swim so fast, yet gracefully.
The group then split up and some of us gals headed over to Gili Air, the less party island from Gili T, where we had lunch, paddle boarded, sun tanned, and ended the day with a quick dinner over at our island. It really was such a wonderful day and I seriously can’t recommend these islands enough, especially Meno. It’s given me such a huge appreciation for the quiet atmosphere on our little island… I realized that it’s also helped us to strip down all the ‘things’ in our life in order to really experience what REAL yoga can teach you.
With Love, N